[Ayame]

@ Tony and Draven:

well, kash has a 5 year old son... And has to pay childcare... But he couldt afford it so he got in trouble with the police... He's already on probation for somthing he said he didn't do though I have no idea what he's on probation for. He was supposed to show up to multiple court hearings and he didn't, which obviously got the police suspicious so they were after him and looking for him and he's been hiding from them for months.... Along with that he has some issues ... He's suicidal for one thing... And he's addicted to nerve and anxiety pills (xanax I think he said) along with some other things.... He has issues at home with his family.... And it's just a huge mess

he was on the run from them yesterday and they found him and took him away...

The reason why I'm mad at him, is that, he can be so charming and sweet... And it's authentic... But he's also manipulative:...He needs attention like a vampire needs blood... He plays the innocent victim though I'm sure that he isn't purely innocent like he claims to be.... Add that to some things he's said to me and the way he said it... And the fact that I feel like I've been used... And just some other small things.... He really drains you.... It's always poor ME, feel sorry for ME .... etc etc.... And it's gotten me so far that after 2 weeks of being with him... I'm so exhausted that I'm lying in bed sick...

I don't want to drag him into the dirt or anything... Because I do still love him.... But I just can't take it anymore....