This is for a certain someone...

Entangled in a web of confusion
My mind leads me on a path away from my heart, away from my true feelings, away from you
I so desperately need you, yet you say you don't need anyone
My heart rips to shreds with every changed feeling, every deceptive word, every fleeting memory
The shadows in my heart have become overwhelming, engulfing me, pulling me towards the pits of emptiness
There's nothing left of you, nothing...

These past couple of weeks have been really great =D
I got to spend lots of government money that I don't have to pay back and I'm not a temp at work anymore.
Last Thursday was really interesting...or rather embarrassing and overwhelming. To put it simply, I'm engaged now. =]
Overall though, yesterday was the best. Went to Busch Gardens during the day and Howl-O-Scream at night....then went other places. =D

So really, the only bad things are the fact that I can't...

I'm a f*cking horrible person.

How could I do that to them? To myself?

I promised myself I was done with that lifestyle..
I'm no good.






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Once again, I'm going to say that this is me just ranting and please feel free to ignore it.

Yesterday was graduation. Standing there in the locker room showed me how much I had separated myself from the school the three years I had been there. Of course, I overheard a crap load of gossip. People just can't get over themselves.

On the field, sitting in the tiny white chairs cramped together in the middle of all the girls, I realized why I had separated myself. I hate...

So I feel like ranting, complaining and all that good stuff. Feel free to ignore me.

Why does everything important happen at the same time? I mean, in the next two weeks I have to go to more formal events than I have been to in my entire life. It seems like every place around here is only hiring managers and that sort of stuff, so how in the hell am I supposed to get a job! At this point, I'm really scared. If I don't have a job within the next six months, I'm gonna be in deep shit....