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So yeah...

AngieRox788 — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 03:03:22 GMT

Just thought I'd update what's going on in my life >>

I got married in September. :3
My baby was born last week.

Spoiler

And yeah...I'm dead tired. That's pretty much it x.x

Well then...

AngieRox788 — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 17:57:38 GMT

For those of you that didn't read my last blog or just don't talk to me, I'm pregnant.
Last week I found out that I'm having a baby girl :3
It's exciting n_n

Yeah, that's all I had to say. :rolleyes:

Yep.

AngieRox788 — Fri, 08 Apr 2011 20:10:47 GMT

I'm pregnant. Due November 27th.

I was excited....until now.

Journal >> meh.

AngieRox788 — Mon, 06 Dec 2010 13:34:36 GMT

So I don't really expect many people to read the whole thing >> but it was just a little journal entry I made last week to try and start a journal....didn't really work.

Quite often, I find myself looking at my reflection in the mirror. I wonder �who is this person I see? That�s not me!� I have a mental image of myself, a monster like no other. My past sins haunt me more than the eye can see.

In the mirror, I see a young woman, fully blossoming into adulthood, knowledge in her eyes, almost appearing happy. When did that happen I wonder? I feel no more of an adult than when I was thirteen. I�m always foolish and stupid, tossing away life lessons and this so-called �knowledge.� I know behind the smile there are tears ready to fall, anger ready to burst. The world looks down on me as I look down upon it.

I no longer struggle to fit in with society. I laugh and work, attend school, have my off days. If only they knew the truth behind it all. I am but a doll, controlling myself from the inside out, yet the outside in as well. Sometimes people say you have to take control of your life, make your wrongs a right. Honestly I do not believe you can do that all on your own. You choose which doors to open, which path to take. However, it is not all your own. There are obstacles and doubt. Sometimes it is laid out for you, clear as day, and all you can manage to say is NO because it shouldn�t be that way.

When you�ve reached what you believe to be true happiness, it�s ripped out from under your feet. Happiness is but a fleeting memory, a last look at what used to be, what you couldn�t see. Still, at the end of it all, they expect you to pretend as if nothing happened, be happy or pay the price. There is nothing worse than knowing you�re all alone, sharing your pain with no one else. Yes, people have their own pain and say they understand, but they can�t comprehend how it feels to you, how it could differ from one to another. A living hell, if you will.

I have seen people �friends and family � come and go with little but a hello and goodbye. Never found that one person to be there through it all. Maybe I look scary or put out a murderous aura, but people never seem to want to approach me. So I don�t approach them. No matter how I look at it, there�s nothing but a fall at the end.

Unbreakable

AngieRox788 — Tue, 30 Nov 2010 02:08:47 GMT

Short poem : o

High above the clouds, in my own right mind
I see you looking down on me, thought I left you behind
Catch me by the wing, pull me back down
You can push me to the ground, pick me back up
Kick me, tease me, twist me, squeeze me
Look into my eyes and tell me you enjoy pain
Tie me up and lock me away
Tell me this is where I ought to stay
To that, I will forever say
My heart is loud, my mind is proud
You can never bend me or bruise me
To you, I will forever be
Unbreakable

Onnnn a side note, I got bored so I took pics of my notes w/doodling on them...actually it's mostly scribbles because I like to scribble it out when I'm done >>

Ugh.

AngieRox788 — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 07:59:54 GMT

I hate parents. That is all. -_-

Heh, people~

AngieRox788 — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 04:40:26 GMT

Okay, so in no way is this supposed to be offensive to anyone, so please understand this a lighthearted matter and only meant to be funny :')

Click to read!

For those who don't want to read it all >>
Basically, a guy filed a restraining order against Tim Tebow, Barack Obama, and Jesus. He claimed they were in gangs and he felt threatened by them. Needless to say, it was rejected. ;O

San Francisco :O

AngieRox788 — Sun, 31 Oct 2010 20:20:01 GMT

Welllll, as some of you may know, this weekend I went on a trip to San Francisco, California (actually I stayed in Burlingame). But that's beside the point. This weekend was really fun! ^^
The first day there wasn't really anything going on so we took a train and two buses over to Japantown. It was a very long and complicated thing and took us two hours to get there D:
Upon entering, there were malls on either side of us. So yeah, we spent the rest of our day in there. XD I bought a couple penguin key chain things, and then we got to the bookstore and we were like *__________________*
They had my favorite manga! So I bought the first two, but it's in Japanese. -_-'
Well actually pretty much everything in the store was in Japanese :'D
That aside, we spent like 6 hours in the mall looking in all the shops. We ate miso ramen, yum~! Then we had crepes. GGosh that day was so good. D: Buuuuuut we decided to take a taxi back (and it only took us 30 minutes to get back). And I lost my phone in it D:<

When we got back to the hotel, we went to bishie bingo. (we were at yaoicon, lol) It was pretty hot ;O

Saturdaayyyyy, I spent most of my day in the dealers room/fan market. I bought plenty of stuff : o though not as much as some other people I know ^^ At 4:30 was the amv contest and it was so good. One of them even made me cry D': Ofc it was the best one >: D
Hmm, then after that was the cosplay contest and the bishie auction. These two people were auctioned off for $11,000 (Ryoutarou Okiayu & Hidenobu Kiuchi). We were all like hollyyyy shit! They were the guests of honor though so no wonder. ^^ But the rest of the auction was kinda not entertaining. D:
After that was the dance, which went until 4 am >> Then we ended up going to Rowan McBride's room with her friend and their bishie they bought (He was cosplaying as Ichigo, he was so hot...abs. *_*) So we didn't end up going back until 630 a.m...ish. Which then I only got to sleep like 4 hours D:

So now I'm waiting for my flight, which is in another 40 minutes~! Hehe

Trip~

AngieRox788 — Fri, 29 Oct 2010 00:00:35 GMT

So. I'm going on a trip to San Francisco for the weekend : D
I'm kinda nervous though...and excited!
Anyways, yeah, see ya later~ <3

Wtf?

AngieRox788 — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 18:38:30 GMT

How do you do a live concert in 3D? -_-

Just wanted to say...

AngieRox788 — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 00:45:41 GMT

Goodbye. :x

Truth be told.

AngieRox788 — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 06:08:59 GMT

This is for a certain someone...

Entangled in a web of confusion
My mind leads me on a path away from my heart, away from my true feelings, away from you
I so desperately need you, yet you say you don't need anyone
My heart rips to shreds with every changed feeling, every deceptive word, every fleeting memory
The shadows in my heart have become overwhelming, engulfing me, pulling me towards the pits of emptiness
There's nothing left of you, nothing left for me
Everything just thrown away
One hole finally filled, only to have another open up...

It's abnormally short, shorter than the rest of my poems...but it's all I care to share.

Heart and Soul

AngieRox788 — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 08:34:37 GMT

My world in the palm of your hands
Everything I feel
All comes back to the memories of you
I gave everything
And you shoved it in my face
Made me suffer the fate
The one I knew and left behind
It's reality again
And it's all I will ever know
Down in the dumps and lower
No reason to stay
Every reason to leave
All because of a few words
It's more than it seems
Finally, someone I trust
Someone to let in
I've lost sight of that
It's the things you say
That makes me path so unclear
Nothing to follow
Heart nor soul
Confused and lost
Crying in agony
And for these actions
There remains no answer

Again, comments/constructive criticism only.

Untitled.

AngieRox788 — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 00:55:31 GMT

The world is still
All around me
Nothing can be heard
Except your voice
Yelling in my ear
Piercing the senses
The words I hear
Deprive me of my joy
The pounding against my body
Tears pouring down my face
Parts battered and bruised
Helpless in this dark alley
Where no one can hear the screams
Fighting for my life
Trying to shove you off
Becoming impatient
How can this satisfy
When it causes me so much pain
After an hour of waiting
You let me be
Leave with a smirk on your face
You've done yourself a favor
One year later
This night still haunts me
Coming to life in my dreams
No day is the same
Everyday for me now
Is just one step to recovery

This was written 3-4 years ago :rolleyes:
Comments/constructive criticism only.

Half Dead.

AngieRox788 — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 09:09:00 GMT

Alone I stand
Watching the ground fall from beneath me
Diving further into the black abyss
Failing to grasp reality

All that surrounds me are the lies I've created
Drowning myself in a pool of deceit
Unable to escape from this reoccurring path

I turn my head away
Leave behind the self-loathing
Every emotion locked away deep within
Never looking back for one last glimpse