http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/ Here you can find all the latest anime streamed and have not only the option to download them, but also the option to talk about them. en Tue, 14 Feb 2012 04:43:54 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/v-son_mavi/misc/rss.jpg http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/ http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/11477-all-about-me-blog-2.html Tue, 13 Apr 2010 18:06:09 GMT I’ve started slacking off for some reason. I’m curious of why. It seems like I maybe too content. Work is something I’d prefer to avoid, no matter... I’ve started slacking off for some reason. I’m curious of why. It seems like I maybe too content. Work is something I’d prefer to avoid, no matter how beneficial it is to me. I tend to act more like a night owl, and even then I refuse to work on more important topics such as school work. I used to enjoy drawing, role-playing, writing, working on projects, Ultima Series was a heavy part of my work as well…yet now for some reason I can’t even focus on such things. I’ve picked up Yu-gi-oh again for some reason…I mean I had never really dropped it yet, I seemed to be focusing heavily on it this time. I’ve even attempted to duel in IRC chat rooms. Seriously, something must be done. Perhaps I should start finding ways to focus on my future…and the sad thing is, no matter how impending it may seem…I’ve lost my focus and drive. I need to find it again. I know that right now I’m writing due to the fact I’m either bored, or wound up due to the caffeine running through my body at the moment, or even a combination; nevertheless, this is not something I wish to be constantly using as a point of focus that will lead to nothing but harm and eventually become useless. I need to find something else that I may use as a continuous drive, an idea or a purpose for everything I do so I may have a drive. Until then, I’m afraid this shall continue, and will lead me nowhere but to more problems. ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/11477-all-about-me-blog-2.html http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/9910-understanding.html Mon, 08 Feb 2010 07:28:44 GMT What does it mean to understand someone or something? That's my topic today, and yes my dear reader it's as always a negative view. But why is it a negative view and not a positive...because I had met so few of people that could completely understand who I am, what I am, how I act, how I interact, what values I hold, and how I carry such values out. I understand this maybe one of the worst places to constantly convey such things, yet I know a few of you may care...and thus may give a word of advice upon such skewed view or slight consultation of my reactions.

As most of you know, I do have problem...who doesn't. Mine are a bit abnormal though, and are usually seemingly injustified...however I can only state that one would have to experience what I've experienced...felt what I have felt...known what I have known...what revelations had become evident in my mind...and what truths have become false words in my life to begin even comprehending why I am this way. But I don't wish a person to know why I am this way, that is something they may desire. I say this because noone can truly understand what everyone else is like, because we all change...cell by cell, event by event, second by second...and I am no different in that specifics. What I'm trying to understand is how am I able to comprehend much of what everyone else portrays, what they're trying to get me to see...while they, have no idea of even the simplistic views I present. I state something completely simple, perhaps with slight sarcasm of a joke...and a person takes it with such regard of me being serious that he/she forgets the topic and context and jumps to the instant conclusion of throwing up a self-defense mechanism and attacking me. Or perhaps I state something serious, one of value...one thing that should be held in some understanding of higher placements...and it's brushed aside...thrown to the ground...and walked upon just for the amusement of another. Do I merely somehow give off views of being hypocritical in my nature that everything I do has the opposing meaning? Or is it something different? Such as I place myself in locations that people expect me to be a certain way, and when I'm not...they still take it to be that certain way? Either one makes sense...perhaps its a combination of the two...or something else entirely...however, I must inquire this my dear readers for I need to know what needs to be changed in order to exist in at least half of harmony within this realm... ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/9910-understanding.html http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/9527-self-proclaimed-logic-success-failure.html Thu, 21 Jan 2010 00:19:53 GMT I had at one point thought; failure was the act of giving into the ideology upon which success lied. In other words, as long as the undertaker of any... I had at one point thought; failure was the act of giving into the ideology upon which success lied. In other words, as long as the undertaker of any task refused to succumb to the lack of his or her advances in terms of success, he or she had not yet failed. This statement of course, is full of error as I have come to realize. As any of my “less idiotic than normal” derivatives, I had come across this suspicion at a sudden realization at no importantly influential moment. Backed by neither fact nor experience, even my current work stands at a non-credible position of self-proclaimed logic and relivance.

First, I suppose, I shall state to you…my dear reader, “I apologize.” I do not apologize in the fact that you’ve chosen to read this, for that is your option, and likewise is also your option to cease in reading this at any time; but instead, apologize about the lack of sharing my background or describing my logic behind how I’ve gained and why I’m choosing to convey my temporary views with you. If anything this maybe one of my more selfish written works, in an effort for you to complete and correct my skewed and conflicted view.

As the latter, my topic shall begin with the initial introduction of failure. What makes a failure…a failure? Many…many people have attempted and some have given a definition of failure. Most stated it is the absence of success. Merriam-Webster, a dictionary, states that failure is an omission of occurrence or performance. Omission meaning, the act of omitting…neglecting…failing. Interesting how many definitions “indirectly” use the round-about words in their definition, to give something a defined meaning…without ever actually stating what it truly is. So, what is failure? Let’s look what success is.

Success in accordance to many definitions of both verbal and texted sources state the following: the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors; achievement of something desired, planned, or attempted. This means, any kind of outcome that is produced that is favorable, desired, planned, or achieved…then it is success. But one has to question: Favorable to whom? Desired by whom? Planned and/or achieved…by whom? These questions are what truly define “success” and ultimately also define failure. For in actuality, neither success nor failure truly exists until any particular outcome is given a value with a defined “whom” in the above series of questions. ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/9527-self-proclaimed-logic-success-failure.html http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/3717-human-life.html Mon, 11 May 2009 03:22:32 GMT You know...anime is something that drags us from reality and makes us feel a bit better about a world that we live in...yet there are just somethings... You know...anime is something that drags us from reality and makes us feel a bit better about a world that we live in...yet there are just somethings you really can't avoid. Once a man said to me...you can go to any school...point from left all the way to right and say..."one of you will never make it to the graduation"...and even if you believe his words...you'll never truly comprehend the magnitude of their true meaning and impact until it happens...in recent events actually...a fellow classmate...drowned in a nearby river...a person who's name I'll remain anonymous...never made it out of highschool...his life has ended at that time a few days ago...and as I think more of it...something even heavier hits me...I've known several people...who will never make it to graduation...in a world that we live in...the truth is that...you can't hit rewind...and see them alive again...you can't stop the movie so you never see them die...it will happen regardless...and the more you fight it...the more pain you'll feel...fate's never played fair...and no matter how much they live inside our hearts...and our minds...and our memories...they are gone...and nothing will ever change that. ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/3717-human-life.html http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/3318-yeah-i-kind-did-give-up-but-no-longer.html Tue, 14 Apr 2009 04:38:25 GMT I've been roleplaying for 4 years now...lived a life of 18 years...fighting for my pride and freedom for half of that time...and then fighting for acceptance with the other half...and I have come across many people...some of them you couldn't stand...others seemed to be just trying you out...and some you have come to be really appreciate...I have came here as a mere guest...trying to find a place to hold onto to call myself an equal to most of members here...I found it hard...near impossible since I view the world so bleakly and strait forward...however I continued doing what I enjoyed...jumping from art, to music, to roleplaying and back...but seems no matter what I do...where I go I'll always find those who just can't stand me...and wish to do nothing but limit my presence here to a minimum...and I'm perfectly fine with it...as long as they do the same to themselves...if anything...I might not know where I stand here...but I do know where I stand as a mortal...an equal to every single being here and in this realm...and I will not allow anyone to stop me any longer...or hold my ambitions back! ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/3318-yeah-i-kind-did-give-up-but-no-longer.html http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/2182-all-about-me-blog.html Mon, 02 Feb 2009 18:04:51 GMT As you can tell this blog is all about ME, ME, ME...and guess who else? Ofcourse, ME...and if you don't like it, I don't care...because this blog isn't about YOU...it's about ME...so if you want to talk about YOU...YOU can just go to your own section and make a YOU blog...because this blog is all about ME, for ME, and by...you guessed it...ME...and ME, MYSELF, and I is feeling rather selfish so when that happens I talk about ME...now that you understand, welcome to the blog of ALL ABOUT ME show. ]]> Kain http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/blogs/kain/2182-all-about-me-blog.html