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Posted 07-03-2012 at 04:18 AM by Spicynoodle
It’s simultaneous everyday that life gets closer and closer to my face; I ponder every moment constantly — like it’s some sort of inevitability that absolutely nothing will happen… as if time will just consistently pass without anyone knowing.
To date, my age group hasn’t even started life as it is. We’ve been basking on nothing but probabilities like everything we thought was rational and would instantly go as planned. Truth be told, nothings finished until it’s actually done. I strain myself everyday stressing about whats to come, about what i’m to do once everything i once knew was gone — but that’s ok, its just life. We haven’t even began to depict what true life actually is.
Sure it’s ok to self-doubt almost everything, it’s part of growing up. It’s a personal flaw everyone has because truth is, we’re all scared to grow up. We have that ‘unsaturated’ feeling we’ve been basking in since we were infants. It’s ok to be lonely now, its ok a lot of us to not be in a relationship. We’re all just afraid of letting everything go at the start.
My true contentment is not to be with anyone at the moment, but persevere who i’m going to become. I rather take this time to learn who i am before i learn who anyone else is. Solitary life isn’t so bad, and its the beginning of introverts to truly learn who they are and what we’re capable in life. It’s a lot better, really. We dream all the time, but that becomes our aspirations. People who already hurried into their life won’t have this side of what we have. We’ve studied all asunder, and i will never take back this loneliness feeling i have; because when it hits them for the first time, that’s when life smacked them in the face.
I’ll always be waiting, but not as a lonely, pessimist, but as a guy who will always be waiting what life brings me as I continually sip my cup of coffee. Screw rationality and screw society. Life is more beautiful than what is perceived now.
Remember that and let everything blow away that was wasteful in my life, because the things i have now, i will never let go of.
To date, my age group hasn’t even started life as it is. We’ve been basking on nothing but probabilities like everything we thought was rational and would instantly go as planned. Truth be told, nothings finished until it’s actually done. I strain myself everyday stressing about whats to come, about what i’m to do once everything i once knew was gone — but that’s ok, its just life. We haven’t even began to depict what true life actually is.
Sure it’s ok to self-doubt almost everything, it’s part of growing up. It’s a personal flaw everyone has because truth is, we’re all scared to grow up. We have that ‘unsaturated’ feeling we’ve been basking in since we were infants. It’s ok to be lonely now, its ok a lot of us to not be in a relationship. We’re all just afraid of letting everything go at the start.
My true contentment is not to be with anyone at the moment, but persevere who i’m going to become. I rather take this time to learn who i am before i learn who anyone else is. Solitary life isn’t so bad, and its the beginning of introverts to truly learn who they are and what we’re capable in life. It’s a lot better, really. We dream all the time, but that becomes our aspirations. People who already hurried into their life won’t have this side of what we have. We’ve studied all asunder, and i will never take back this loneliness feeling i have; because when it hits them for the first time, that’s when life smacked them in the face.
I’ll always be waiting, but not as a lonely, pessimist, but as a guy who will always be waiting what life brings me as I continually sip my cup of coffee. Screw rationality and screw society. Life is more beautiful than what is perceived now.
Remember that and let everything blow away that was wasteful in my life, because the things i have now, i will never let go of.
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Eh, you're looking at oddly for what you want in life. Just live solely in the moment, for the most part disregard the past and the future.
One of my favorite/most used quotes: "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift; that's why it is called the present."
If you focus on your past at all, you never see the moment, and the present slips away constantly, meditate on any attachments, grudges, bad memories/anything that haunts you, and move past them completely. This is something I'm dealing with myself right now.
If you wait or look forward to the future, once again the present moment will slip away. Any plans you had, if they don't go correctly, will eventually end up as nothing more than a bad past that you will once again lose yourself in.
Another thing is to realize that nothing is created good or bad, it is through the eyes of the perceiver at ALL times. Polarity/duality is an illusion created by unnecessary judgment of your ego.
Put these three things together and you will be better able to change your perception of many things. Live in the moment, and deal with anything that comes your way, do anything that needs to be done and move on. No matter what it is, chaotic and corrupt or the happiest moment of your life, don't judge it and just do whatever needs to be done, loving every moment you spend the same as the previous.
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Do not worry about your age group, focus on your life. You are the one who makes all of your own decisions and chooses your own outcomes, what happens to other people is their own choice and you have no say so in what happens. You can try your best, and hope that they are attached enough to you to listen if you are trying to help, but they do not have to do anything of the sort.
I honestly see no point in relationships unless you are in love with the person as much as you love life and yourself, before even thinking about being with them... and then it's better without putting a label on things. That is just my view on things though.
The thing with relationships in today's society is that people go into things confused beyond belief. Most people, when entering a dating game, have not yet truly discovered themselves. If you cannot understand and completely love yourself, how can you do the same for anything else?
Regardless of this fact, people also confused mind and heart and lose themselves toward the end of "bad relationships". If you think about how you feel, you will never know. The mind/brain is logic, thought, while the heart is for emotions and feeling; do not mix the two, especially in such circumstances as dating/romantic love. We've all been there at one point though.
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True life is simply living your life, be yourself by yourself. Surround yourself with everyone and everything if it so happens to work out that way, but learn detachment from those things. Every time you become attached, you divide and cloud your mind, you give up a little part of yourself for everything you let grow on you.
Eh it's really not okay to have self-doubt bro, we all have it, but it is our greatest weakness as humans in our modern civilization. We can do absolutely anything we want if we just grow a pair. If I ever figure out how, I would love to change the world away from the way most societies currently exist.
Just remember, you're never alone, no matter how much you want to make yourself believe that you are, just open your mind, your eyes, and your heart. :P Have a good life noodlez.Posted 07-03-2012 at 04:05 PM by SephirothX
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