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Short Story

susa_24 — Tue, 18 May 2010 23:31:15 GMT

It�s hard to remember how the world felt like before, back when my muscles worked and I could show them I was alive.
They treat me like I�m not even here, but I guess I�m really not.
�Dude, I have no idea what TBI is, would someone tell me what is going on?!� I wished I could scream, but my body wouldn�t respond. Many times I had tried to remember how this happened, but all I know I learnt form the doctors.
The car sent me flipping through the air, and I landed on my head. Something in my brain isn�t right anymore; they think I�m on a coma or something, but I don�t get it.

�I�m here people, please� I�m alive!� Nothing. My eyes are closed, but I can hear people move around me. They�ve plugged me to so many machines I can�t keep count. I can�t feel anything either, the only thing left that works is my brain and my hearing.
The doctors don�t know that apparently, because they�ve said some brutal things that should have been sugar coated for me.

It�s been around two months, if I were in a coma my chances of waking up are slim, luckily I�m not in a coma, right?
�You may want to take a look at this, it�s the EEG scans� Someone swiftly walked in the room while the doctor was in here too.
�These are normal brainwaves�� The doctor�s voice trailed off. I wanted to jump out of bed and shake him until he realised what this meant. I could only trust him to do that on his own.

�J-Josh� Can you hear me?�

Had to write a short story for English class and thought I'd put it up here, what do you guys think?

The Drugs Don't Work

susa_24 — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 02:43:33 GMT

Ever heard that song? its very good =)

Well I'm blogging cuz I've been gone for a while, I was on vacations and now I'm back, curious things happened while I was away and I'll let you in on some..

I crashed. (Nothing happened, my cousin was driving and a dude came out of nowhere, it was a bit funny actually)

I saw a tree fall on a guy who was cutting anoher tree down, he died shortly after and his swollen head due to the internal bleeding will forever be engraved in my mind.

After this, which took place somewhere south, on a deserted farm where a black cloud of death will forever haunt every soul that dares enter its realm, we rove a bit north, we wewre still south though, and stayed on another farm, in the middle of nowhere.
There i basically kept writing a story i've been working on (see previous blogs) and tried sorting out the places where horses were due to my horsephobia.

We made pizza, celebrated my dad's b-day, congratulated him for building a hanging bridge and I read.

I came back home today to find my kitty left, leaving me behind in this cold empty room which i compulsively keep trying to fill with drawings on the walls, and whatever i find that will make the loneliness i've unintentionally carved on every inch go away.

So now I'm cat-less and about to start school (i was in summer vacations).

What a summer this was! I'd totally not do it over again....

Friggin Hospital �.�

susa_24 — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 16:53:58 GMT

Blogging about a terrible day in the hospital, I hope you have a laugh reading this =)....

11 am: I wake up with an acute pain in my chest... (Location of the pain, like 2 fingers before the breastbone ends.) So I tell my mom, this is like the third time it happens, so she calls my psichiatrist because we figured it was because of the pills i'm taking....

3 pm: The psychiatrist calls back after a phone oddissey, but that's another blog, she tells my mom that she had never heard of a patient with those symptoms that was taking my meds, so we have to go to the hospital.

4 pm: After driving to the hospital, getting lost in the parking lot and going to the wrong ER i'm lying on a box (box as in the places where you stay while the doctors come and check u) with a LOT of pain.
Someone please explain, why is it that ER's are ALWAYS filled with small kids and babies! I wanted to knock them all unconcious, they screamed and cried... Its not very fun, so there I was rolling with pain on the stretcher while the stupid kids cried over nothing... I hated it...
4 30 pm: A female pediatritian with not much hair walks in and examines me... heres how it went:
Dr: *touches stomach* does it hurt there?
Me: no...
Dr: *touches back* there?
Me: no...
Dr: *touches every-friggin-where* there?
Me: NO! ITS MY CHEST....
Dr: *touches chest: there?...
Me: *winces* yeah...
So she scheudles an ultrasound scan to rule out appendicitis and other stuff, meanwhile she puts me on a dripping pain killer, which eventually makes the pain go away (yaaay!) but makes me totally and completely drugged my mom told me i acted like him:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Zg86F_H2Qo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDh4JT9kILA&feature=related

So yeah, it was pretty fun =)..

4.50: Ultrasound scan... let me explain how it goes... doctor squirts a blue liquid that NEVER fails to be so cold you start shivering, immediately after doctor proceeds to try to stab you with the implement. So after ten minutes of trying to run the stupid implement across my stomach, doctor stands up and tells me we're done..
Now even with the painkiller, the pain comes back...
After getting an X-Ray (reason, beats me) of my chest i'm back in box 9 *shivers* waiting for test results, while we wait they take my blood pressure and check my heartbeats and temperature every 10 minutes, doctor comes back with the tests (negative, negative, everything doctor thought i had had a big red X on it)... So she comes up with this master plan...

6.45: Okay this part is hard for me to write but here it goes... First I'll have to introduce something called Fleet... Imagine a straw attached to a bag filled with liquid... Now please imagine all the places that could go... They shoved it up my pretty white arzze! :mad::mad::mad::mad:
Do you think I had a say in this? I still dont know why they did it... bottom line, after waiting for 10 minutes, holding the liquid inside i'm on the bathroom, without going into details 15 minutes later i come out, still in pain..

7.15: After being practiaclly raped by a piece of plastic i'm back in box 9... Doctor comes in..
Dr: Well everything is negative so you'll have to go home and the pain will go away.. After a discussion that involved my mom asking for a second opinion and the doctor calling my a liar, the doctor leaves and pages a gastroenterologist so she'll examine me..

8: New dr. comes, she's a pretty nice lady, she asked me some questions and told me i needed an endoscopy.. (Shove a camera down your throat) So at 9.30 they'd come and pick me up..

My mom has had surgeries before, and told me this is the worst time, when you have to wait so they'll pick you up.. She took her watch off and we waited while talking about my sister's surgeries (she has a pretty funny way of waking up after surgeries) and we laughed, i wasnt nervous at all...
(Bte i forgot to add that during all this time i had an IV with saline solution)
Sooo they rolled me down a hall and up the elevator and down another hall and we went into a room and the guy wwho would put me to sleep talked to me and then it all faded away.

11: I woke up on recovery room, filled with ppl that are supposed to wake up after surgery, my mom told me i have esophagitis (swollen esophagus) and some kind of fungi in there too...

12: i'm on a wheelchair waiting for my dad to do the checkout, i start spinning around and get stuck between a door and a chair and go "oooh i'm dizzy" and i crached into a wall, hehe it was cuz of the sleeping drugs...

So here i am, stuck on my house waiting for the results (we have no idea what kind of mushroom it is) i have to eat soup, cant eat anything sour, bitter, with fibre, chocolate, soft drinks... nothing T.T

what i want to do... is go to the stupid doctor and smack her head off with a frozen fish..

bottom line, dont trust semi-bald doctors

Opinions?

susa_24 — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 19:22:07 GMT

Okay so i had a fight with one of my best friends cuz this is the third time she goes and kisses a stranger... who's right in the fight?

Belle: Hiiii!
M a n u: Helloo!
Manu: Hey girl i gotta tell you sth :S
Belle: whaat?
Manu. I kissed a guy :S
Belle: NO!
Belle: who??!
Manu: A dude, he was sooo hot!
Belle: What's his name?
M a n u: benjamin
Belle: ...when did you meet him?
M a n u: The first night
M a n u: :S and he left the next day, he has a gf... :S
(F)Belle: Sh*t manuela that's what you get for kissing unknown guys
Belle: I cant believe it!
Belle: what's wrong with you?
M a n u: but i kneew..
Belle: You cant kiss a guy like that!
Manu: He was sooo hot!
Belle: WORSE!
Belle: NO MANUELA!
Manu: but belle he was so fiiine!!
Belle: i dont care
M a n u: sorry but it wasnt like that, we talked the whole night
M a n u: from 9 to 3 and then i ate him
Belle: that's no excuse... you ATE hm??!
Belle: close your mouth!
Manu: haha but hey you should congratulate me he was the hottest guy in the beach this summer
Belle: CONGRATULATE YOU??!!
Manu:hahaha okay sorry but i dont regret it he was hot and very nice
Belle: nvm i cant talk to you like this..
Manu: meanie..are you mad?
Belle: yeah..
Manu: why?
Belle: because..
Manu: why?
Manu: cuz i ate that guy, thats why you're mad?
Belle: yup
Manu: whyy?
Manu: i didnt do it as a wh*re or anything
Belle: i know..
Manu: no
Belle: really...
Belle: what then...
manu: because he was hot!
Belle: and he had a gf...
Manu: but he was wasted, plus its summer..sh*t
belle: he was drunk...
Belle: you KISSED a DRUNK guy who you KNEW had a GF?!
Manu: he was drunk when i met him, when we kissed he was just whoozy..
Manu: but you cant get mad cuz of that, he was drunk, it's summer and i'll never see him again until next year here in the beach...
manu: and we're friends, it wasnt cuz i'm a b*tch and i hate it that u treat me like i am
Belle: i'm not treating you like u are
Belle: i'm saying be careful...
Manu: careful with what this sh*t stays in the beach...
Manu: and i'm not gonna turn into a wh*** i'm serious..
Manu: i really don't regret it from the moment i saw him i liked him
Belle: and her gf? whats up with her?
Manu: and he was cute and everything
Manu: no idea
Belle:...
Manu: f*ck this this is the third time you do this to me i dont feel like talking anymore
Belle: i'm just giving you my opinion..

Neighbours.. GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!11

susa_24 — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 01:35:18 GMT

FRIGGIN NEIGHBOURS ARE HAVING A PARTY -.- it feels like i'm INSIDE the frigging speaker, the mjusic's too loud and they have a microphone and they yell and give instructions and they've put the "i gotta feeling" song at least 5 times and tis only been 1 hour since it started... i just wanna kill them all :mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

just unloading everything here cuz if i dont i seriously will go over there and shove the microphone up someone's arrze xD

Leaving Until Further Notice

susa_24 — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 23:29:48 GMT

Just wanted to let you all know that i wont be around for a while, i'm having trouble with my mind and if i dont take care of myself i could develop a psychotical disorder... i'm scared and i need time to fix this, i love you all but i love my life and whats left of my sanity more... when i'm doing better i'll drop by and tell y'all how i'm doing.. if you want to keep in touch susa_100@hotmail.com is my msn and i'll gladly talk to anyone who adds me.

guess thats it *bows* i love you all!!! and dont forget me cuz i'll be back once i'm healed...
*shunpos away and cap falls off*

Vent

susa_24 — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 18:31:04 GMT

you dont need to read this, i just write it so it gets out of my system and i can get through the day alive....

okay so we have a family meeting because my dad felt like it (my family's very very very numerous, and he invited EVERYONE) so i said hi and sta down and listened to the conversation and shazam! they're talking about my mom's cancer (HOORAY! thats a new topic!) and it sucks cuz everytime i think i'm over the subject and i can carry on with my life BOOM someone starts talking about it agian and it frustrates me because well theres nothing i can do for them to stop talking and well because everyone talks about it like they know what i went through and they DONT so i just feel like punching them and telling them to stfu because they just dont know what all of us went through and they go like "oh yeah i know what thats about, when my goldfish died" OMFG WTH IS WRONG WITH THERE PEOPLE!!!!!!
-.- and well thats all, if u read this far you should find sth better to do...

=.= friggin skiiers

susa_24 — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 02:54:00 GMT

I was skiing today, minding my own buisness like a good skiier and suddenly a guy totally rans over me and somehow sends me flying in the air and KEEPS GOING!!!!!! i crashed into some dangerously put sticks and they took me down to the little hospital they have there and i have nothing serious... my knee's all messed up and all the left side of my body's totally swollen, but i was lucky tho, these are all just mini concussions and stuff..

I just wish the guy had stopped, i dont remember anything (hit my head pretty hard) but i am pretty sure the guy stopped, looked at me and kept going... i mean if u screw up you try to fix it right? T.T now i cant do hockey cuz of this stupid reckless skiier =.=

Chapter 9 on-hold until i find other name for sheena and ike

susa_24 — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 01:43:05 GMT

I'M STICKING WITH ROGAN AND SHEIRA PPL!

Recently discovered fire emblem (damned that blue-haired Ike) which has a character which is pretty much my guy but with blue hair, and tales of symphonia, where there is a purple-haired girl named sheena, so yeah.... gotta find names as cool as those to keep writing, i'll let u know what the new names are.. T.T

Okay so far I have
Ike:
Heath(*)
Ethan(*)
Tarasios
Thai
Tyler
Tyson
Tanner
Logan(*)
Reagan
Aaron
Blake
Bryant

Sheena:
Rayna
Shareena
Sharren(*)
Sharon
Shaya(*)
Shayla
Dawn
Shayna (*)

PLZ if u like any say so.. I ifnd Ike's new name a bit easier than Sheena's for some reason, so her names are a bit like anything i could find...

BELLE-------------OUT LOOKING FOR NAMES
*the ones i like most

Scroll 8: Vin's Past (Part 3)

susa_24 — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 20:23:43 GMT

-You don�t have to think Eron, you have to be certain, you can�t depend on your brains very much when you�re fighting hand to hand; trust your instincts.- The mage said. He was very, very serious about this, but suddenly he grinned and added: -Well, if I were you I definitely would not rely too much on my brains.-
-Okay, okay� I�m still the best at tracking though.- My mom handed Eron a glass of orange juice, which was is favorite and he gulped it down.
-Yes, yes� you�re still the best at tracking.- Per admitted.
-Okay, it�s getting cold Sheen, so you should go back inside.- Vin stood up and in a second stood me up and pushed me to the house.
-Nooo, please, please Vin just until the tourney�s over, pretty please?- I begged, but Vin would not stop shoving me towards the door.
-No, no Miss Sheena. You�re sick and you have to take care of yourself.- I sighed, she was right.
We walked inside and Vin made me go to bed, she would keep me company until she had to fight again. Once we were settled in my room, I gathered some courage and asked her about the dreams she had where she scream, and about her father.
-Well, you know I know how your body�s working, I know exactly when you�re hurt and everything, right?- I nodded. �Well, before I met you, I could feel everyone�s body. It was awful; I knew when people were sick, when they were going to die, everything. Just imagine having to live with that� I almost lost my mind several times, but there were people in the village that helped me through it.
But what really scarred me is that when I was ten, my father, who worked for the mines in the earth continent, took me with him to the mines, because I was always asking him about them.
There was an explosion on the surface, and the underground tunnels collapsed.- Vin paused for a second and breathed in to continue the story.
-In the mines, there are special shelters for the workers made to save them if the tunnel collapses, but the space is very small, made only for one person. He shoved me in and closed the hatch of the shelter. I couldn�t see him, but until today I can remember exactly how he died, after the tunnel had fallen apart completely, I came out and looked for him, I knew he was alive.
I moved rocks around until the last drop of blood left his fractured and shattered body, which was broken in so many awkward ways it was barely human anymore. I looked for him until night came and there, I fell asleep.
I was woken up by my father�s friends, who had found him just minutes ago, they carried my father�s body and me to my mother, who was very worried, but when she discovered that the thing the men were carrying was my father, she burst out crying, and my older sister too, I just sat there and unwillingly replayed my father�s slow and agonizing death in my head.
That event still haunts my dreams and thoughts, staining everything with the ripping pitch of my father�s scream of agony before the first rock cracked his ribs and perforated his left lung, making it painful for him to breathe, but still, he called out my name, knowing I could feel he was dying, he told me to stay inside until everything was over, he kept mumbling my name until his lungs gave out, until he no longer had the strength to move his lips. And I just sat there, safe and sound while my father suffered from an agonizing death�- She started sobbing, as two tears fell from her eyes.
I did not know what to do, so I just hugged her, and told her it was not her fault, just like Per had. Now everything fell into place, why she freaked out when I got hurt by rocks, why she was so mad at Per, why she got upset when the rock exploded. Now I felt bad for having put her through that.
-Now you know, I think that in order to know each other completely, we need to know our pasts, and this marked my life and made me who I am, so I do not regret telling you this. Maybe next time, you�ll tell me something I don�t know about you.- She smiled and wiped her tears.
-I�m terribly afraid of the darkness, but only when I�m alone, and I really, really hate riding horses.- I admitted, hoping that would make her feel better, and it did. She snickered, and then we both laughed.
-Vin, you�re up against Maple, Per will go and keep beasty company.- Eron announced from outside. Vin stood up and smirked.
-I�ll kick her butt for you okay?- She said, and then left.

Per came inside my room when I was about to fall asleep, he noticed and silently sat on the chair next to my bed and smiled.
-Get some sleep, sis.-

Well heres this chapter, sorry it took so long, i got a writer's block :D soo what do u think, like it??

Scroll 8: Vin's Past (Part 2)

susa_24 — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 20:22:24 GMT

very much. I felt the warm wind brush my cheeks, listened to the leaves fall over the grass, the sound of a fist fight, a staff clashing with another staff, Per�s grunt as Vin swept him off his feet. I chuckled at that sentence.
I sat next to Eron, he was nice, of only he was not manically obsessed about me, we would be very good friends, in fact, we were good friends, but there was always that awkward moment where he made clear he liked me.
-So, what did Per do now?- I asked, and, at the same time Vin dodged Per�s staff and ripped it off his hands.
-Nothing really, we�re having a on-the-floor training.- He explained, and, noticing my confused expression, he explained. �It�s a no-harm match, you can�t use anything that is harmful, only your fists, it is also known as hand or close combat. As Vin and Per are in the back line on normal fights, they are allowed their staffs and their magic to fight, the one that gets their opponent on the floor and is able to sit on top of him or her is the winner.- He concluded.
-When you say back line in normal fights, what do you mean?- I inquired.
-You see, when fighting a single opponent, everyone, as a team has positions, there is the front line and the back line. The front line is the one closest to the opponent, this line is only in charge of harming the opponent, and the back line is in charge of backing up the front line, which is the one that takes the damage for the team.
And there are three types of fighters; the front liner, which in our case is Ike and you, you two are the ones that need more strength and brute force, you cant hesitate or stop in a fight, because that would mean your death in a serious fight, the back liner, which are Vin and Per, they are spell casters, you see, they cant be in the front line because casting a spell takes time, and they cant be bothered while doing it, so while the front liners attack, the back liners cast spells. Per casts offensive spells, and Vin casts healing and defensive spells, that leaves me and Maple, we are mid-liners, which means we can either be in the back line of the front line. Maple�s power allows her to be in the most helpful position, either backing up or attacking. And I am working in my back line, I am really good in the front line, but we have to be balanced, and for the team to balanced we need another mid-liner, you are just learning to use the sword, Ike�s power can�t be used from the back line, so that leaves me.- Eron knew a lot about fighting, I was amazed, not only he knew, but he understood how it worked, and he was good at explaining it.
-Wow Eron, you know a lot about� The battle� Stations?- He laughed.
-Strategy, beasty, strategy.- He said.
-Oh, well you know a lot about strategies Eron.- I praised.
-This is just the basic stuff beasty, when we�re done with you you�ll know way much more than this.- As he said this, Per turned into a rope and tied Vin�s feet together, she tripped and fell on her back, but before Per could turn back she was on her feet again, she raced towards Per, who had just turned back and kicked him in the chest. At this attack, Per caught hold of Vin�s leg and pulled her towards him, she raised her staff towards him but he turned Vin�s leg around and she lost balance but managed to kick him in the face with her other leg, as she flip-flapped away from him empty-handed. Per threw Vin�s staff at her, and as she attempted to grab it, the staff turned into a rock that Vin scarcely evaded.
-That was dangerous.- Vin sighed, more to herself than to anyone else.
-Come on Hun, is that all you�ve got?- Per taunted.
-Not really, I was just warming up sweetie.- Vin snapped back.
-Well that is amazing because if that is it then we could just call it a.- As Per kept talking, Vin disappeared from where she was and darted towards Per, but they started moving at an amazing speed that my eyes could not follow. Amazingly, all my companions seemed to be able to follow their movements easily, whereas all my family looked quite confused. I had seen them move at this speed, and was shocked by it, now I was used to them moving that fast, but I had never managed to follow their movements, so I guessed it was nothing you could train your eye to see.
I could see as all my family squinted their eyes to try and understand what was going on, and I resigned to my very, very normal and powerless eye and took some time to look at the landscape, but I found myself contemplating all the people gathered around the fight, which was now filled with afterimages of Vin and Per, sometimes there would be a flying staff, a grunt or a giggle, but it would go on. My eyes went from Ike to Liz, then from my mother to my father and after they would fixate on Eron.
I just couldn�t figure him out yet, it is as if he has two personalities, one was completely obsessed with me, and would do anything to have me, but the other one was completely different, it was very nice, I could totally stand it, I actually was starting to like that part of Eron.
After five minutes of this sped up fight, I started getting bored, so I started thinking about Vin�s healing power, and suddenly became uneasy with the trail my thoughts were going.
-Hey Eron, what if somehow the opponent gets to Vin and there is no one there to help her out?- I asked, now very upset about this possibility, which made my voice very tense, almost as if I was going to cry.
-Don�t worry beasty, she and Per have already discussed that possibility, and Ike made them a special dagger that fits in the sole of their shoes, that is in the worse case scenario, just so they can hold until one of us appears.- He explained.
-That�s clever- I said, as I sighed in relief � It is kind of awful though.- I added.
-Not really, we just try to patch up everyone�s weak spots, but since we are a team, we shouldn�t be separated to fight, that is the way it is thought to be, but at the same time we are prepared for everything. Besides, Vin�s a beast when it comes to fighting, just watch.- He said.
-Well, I would but I have a little sight problem, see, I really can not follow such speed, nor can any member of our family.- I said, and pointed at my father, who was so concentrated in the fight that his face was twisted in a very awkward way.
Eron cracked up at my father�s attempts to see the fight and his laugh was so contagious I couldn�t help but laughing too.

Suddenly, Vin stopped moving, and Per disappeared, she looked around, knowing he was around, waiting for the exact moment to break her defense. Vin abruptly let go of her staff and fell on the floor, and, as she tried standing up, Per appeared sitting on top of her with both staffs on his hands.
-Gotcha.-Per said. He stood up and quickly got Vin on her feet, she dusted herself and snatched her staff from her boyfriend�s hands.
-Nicely done, sweetie, but you�re still not match for me.- Per said, he pulled Vin close and kissed her.
-Well, you know on-the-floor is not exactly my specialty, I can still kick your ass in knock-out though.- She said.
-Okay, the winner is Per, so now it�s Eron�s turn to go against Per.- My father said.
-Exactly- Eron exclaimed �Now, if you�ll excuse me beasty, I have to kick some ass.- He said, and as he stood up and got in a fighting stance, Vin took his place next to me.
-Nicely done Vin, you�re very good at this.- I praised.
-Not really, I�m the worse fighter, but I�m getting better.- She said.
The second the match started, Eron darted towards Per and landed a very painful looking kick on his stomach.
-He got him good.- Ike said.
-That must have hurt.- I said, Vin, Liz and my parents just looked away.
Per just stood there, with his face twisted in a painful look, white as snow and barely breathing, but when Eron turned away from him, he grinned and winked at me, and rapidly changed back to his painful look. I had to bite my lip to repress a giggle.
-Thank you, thank you very much.- Eron bowed at everyone. � It is my pleasure and delight to kick the old man�s butt any time you like. Vin, just call me anytime, I am going to start charging by the bruise though.- He grinned stupidly and kept bragging about his self-proclaimed victory, and Per took that time to recover from the blow and make himself invisible.
-Huh? Where�s the geezer?-
-When are you going to learn Eron?- Per asked, still invisible.
Eron suddenly tripped forward and kept his balance only to get punched in the face by Per, who slowly appeared, as he punched and kicked Eron and he fought back.
Several gasps, moans and flying kicks later, Eron fell on his stomach and did not have time to stand up, because Per san on top of him and hit his head with his staff.
-How many times do I have to tell you� Make sure you have won before claiming victory, you�re an easy target if you�re careless.- Eron stood up with Per on his back, he sled down and fell on his feet.
-I just thought I had you with that punch. Did it hurt?- Eron smirked evilly and dusted his pants.

Scroll 8: Vin's Past (Part 1)

susa_24 — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 20:19:01 GMT

-Waking up, see?-
-I don�t see anything at all; it's been the same for four days.-
-She's conscious again.-
-No Vin, why don�t you just tell us the truth, she's in a comma, isn�t she?-
-Come on Eron; be reasonable. Nobody goes into a comma because of a fever.-
-Siding with Vin wont help you at all Per.-
-Shut up, I'm trying my best.-
-Four days?- I asked
-She's alive! Beasty, are you okay?- Eron said as he hugged me tightly.
-Back off you beast! She's in pain.-Vin growled.
-Why should I be in pain?- I asked, their conversation was too complicated for me to follow.
-Well, you kinda went delirious and fell off the stairs.- Ike said.
-No way. I hate my life.- I moaned.
-Don�t be an dumb Eron; she's too confused to notice it�s a joke.- Per said, and then I heard something that was probably a smack, but I didn�t bother to open my eyes and check.
-Sorry beasty, I was just kidding.-
-You're in pain because of the fever; it's been going up and down all week.-
-This sucks- I said -It's been one month and a half or something since I met you and I've been awake for twenty three of those days; that is just wrong. At this rate I'll never be ready in time.- I sighed
-Don�t worry Sheens, you have to take your time so you don�t hurt yourself, and this time it's my fault.- Per said.
I opened my eyes and discovered it was the hour of the twilight. I was no longer covered in towels; instead, I was covered in blankets and Liz was lying beside me, she was hot, like everything I ever touched, although this time it was different. Normally when I came in contact with something hot, I felt like I had to stop touching it, similar to the way you feel when you touch ice, you don�t need to, but you want to. This time her warmness felt nice, like I needed it.
Per's face was� Pitiful and grim. His eyes were baggy and his mouth was twisted in a bow, like he hadn�t slept in days.
-Come on Per, you know it isn�t your fault, we all know that.- I said.
-Yeah, except Vin- Eron added -She's being really *****y about this.-
-Eron, get out, now.-Vin warned.
-You have got to know when to stop.- Per advised.
-Okey-dokey. Jeez, love issues affect all the party, this sucks. Hey Liz, wanna help me out a bit in the kitchen?- He Asked Vin, which had been silent until now and opened the door.
-Umm, sure, I'll be right there.- She said. Eron left the room and Vin did too.
-I swear, if he says anything else� One more word and I'll annihilate him. He won't be able to talk again. So long, sound boy!- Vin muttered.
-Come on Vin, you're scaring me. He--. I wanted to make her see she was really being awful about this whole thing, but I didn�t want to pass onto her "To Kill" list. -He is right, you know? I mean, look at Per for one second. He's awful.-
She looked at Per, at first, she was frowning and her eyes were evil. I'm not exaggerating, really evil. Her mouth was shut and her lips were pressed in a tight, flat line.
But after a while, they looked into each other's eyes and Vin's frown began to slowly disappear, her face started to relax and all evilness abandoned her eyes.
Per was pale, his eyes were baggy, and his hair was messy. His face was dull and shadowy. After a while, almost at the same time as Vin's, it started changing. It slowly started gaining color, and he relaxed his eyebrows.
-I'm�I'm sorry Per. I was really mean to you and you didn�t disserve it.- Vin smiled. -Now, why don�t you go to the bathroom and fix your hair? It's awful.- She said with a playful voice. -And, while you're at it, wash your face hun, it's dreadful.- She laughed and Per sighed.
-There is the Vin I love, I've missed you, you know?- He said as he held her in his arms.
-I'm sorry Per, I was unfair, but I- I was upset about the wh-whole rock thing.- She mumbled as she buried her face in Per's chest and he hugged her tightly. I had never seen so many sudden changes of moods in one person so fast, it was impressive.
-Its okay sweetie, I understand, and I'm terribly sorry I made you remember that, I should have been more careful.- Per said. He was so gentle, he spoke so softly at that time; he was so careful that it seemed as if Vin would fall apart if he made one sudden movement. There was something that I was obviously missing.
Vin started crying after that, and she continued for about two hours, she kept saying things like "I didn�t do anything to save him" and "He was in so much pain". And Per was there for her, comforting through every single minute of her pain. Right there, there was something I couldn�t understand about love. I probably wouldn�t stay with her the whole time; I'd get bored and leave her. But he stayed; a complete mystery to me.

During the two hours, I just lay on my bed, being as quiet as I could. I would've left the room but I knew if I tried Vin would stop me and I didn�t want to interrupt.

Two hours later, the sobbing gradually stopped. I noticed Vin's iris had turned completely red. It was a really strange thing to see, she looked creepy, I couldn�t understand why that had happened, but it wasn�t the moment to ask. After a while Vin fell asleep in Per's arms.

I didn�t know what to say, I knew Vin had to tell me what was she crying about, but it was hard not to talk about what had just happened. I hated those uncomfortable silences.
-Um, so, Per� About the levitation thing, what did you find out?- I asked.

-I'm not sure I should tell you.- He said as he picked Vin up. -I'll be right back.- He opened the door of my room, carried Vin to her bed and came back to my room.
-Come on, why not?-
-I'm afraid that you'll run away and train.- He said as he sat in the chair next to my bed.
-Come on, pleaaaase?- I begged.
-No.-
-You know I'll do it anyways so you might as well make it easier for me and tell me right away.-
-No, you won't. I wont let you.-
-Hehe, I'm sure I'll find a way. It'll be a piece of cake.-
-Wanna bet?- He rubbed my head.
-Oww- I moaned -You're on, loser has to run 150 laps around the temple.-
-You can't even run 150, but okay, be prepared sis.- He mocked, but after five seconds he realized he had called me sis and blushed a little bit.
-I'm-- I'm awfully sorry, it's just that you have the same age, and you remind me of her.- He explained. I thought I saw something coming out of his eye, but he wiped it off immediately.
-It's okay bro, I understand.- I joked. -So are you gonna tell me or am I going to have to make you?- I taunted, he laughed.
-I'd love to see you try.-
-Hey, don't underestimate me, I may be sick but I can make you tell me.-
-Oh really? How?-
-Easy� But I won't tell.-
-Aww, come on.- He begged.
-Nuh-uh, if you won't tell, there is no reason why----
-Father, No!- Vin screamed from her room. I stood up but Per pushed me back to my bed.
-I've got this, please stay here.- He said, and ran to Vin's room.
I had nothing to do, and I was feeling a bit dizzy, so I fell asleep.

I couldn�t say how long I�d slept, but Liz was sleeping beside me so I figured it was night. I felt someone was looking at me. I sat up and saw someone standing on the threshold. I couldn�t be certain, but I was almost sure it was Eron. I tried waking Liz, but I came to the conclusion there was no need, and waking up Liz is as easy as biting a wall. So I lay back and continued sleeping.

After the incident with the mysterious person, it was hard to fall asleep again, I woke up three times in the night, and the three times the same person was standing in the threshold, and when I looked that way, it was gone.
I got out of bed at 9 and wondered why there was no one sitting beside me, unlike the other thousand times I�d woken up since I was sick. I took the chance and sneaked downstairs and found that there was no one inside the house. �Must be outside� I deduced. I peered out the window to check, and everyone was gathered outside, watching as Vin and Per sparred.
I watched as Eron glanced to my bedroom window, the front door and fixed his eyes on me. He smiled at me and urged me to join them with his hand. I shook my head.
-Why not?- I heard. The sudden break of the silence startled me, and I jumped back, Eron laughed. I still couldn�t get used to his voice appearing anywhere.
-Because I am sick, and even though I have no problem with going out and disobeying Vin, I want to get better so I can start training again, I cant stand one more day inside this house, I had never been inside for so long, its getting boring.- I said, and I knew Eron had heard because he chuckled at the desperate ring in my voice.
-Vin said some fresh air is alright for you, she knew you were going to wake up and told me to fetch you. Besides if you sit next to me you wont get cold.- He added. This time I was the one chuckling, we had not finished a conversation without Eron hitting on me.
I opened the door and breathed in the fresh air I ached for. Even though it had just been five or six days, I missed the outside

Squad 4 Recruiting (PD)

susa_24 — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 20:27:19 GMT

Hiii pplz!!! I'm the cpt of squad 4 in PD and we really really need ppl there cuz theres like.... Memi and me and its really sad XD.

Let me tell u some things about PD and squad 4...

PD: We have the 13 protection squads with its cpts and lts, etc, etc... They fight eachother daily (most days anyways) its really fun, and if you dont like fighting you can always join squad 4 (:D:D:D:D) and watch the fights and then heal the fighters. The persons there r really nice and we barely fight... Sometimes we party.. its really really fun.
You get to choose your squad, what your zan. does (its name, powers and everything) and additionally to that you get to choose an element or sth else. (I use earth.. Theres wind, Ice and all of that.. but if u have another idea u just have to ask)

Squad 4: Its awesome if u dont like fighting, and if you do, too... Cuz you get to do both things.. its very convinient and since there are 2 persons you'll get a higher rank ;). In bleach squad 4 just heals, but we've added a new feature to it. Squad 4 now repairs zanpakutos and fabricates poisons and drugs for combat to make the fights more interesting :D:D.

If you want to join here's the link http://www.animecrazy.net/forums/gro...new-world.html and all you need to know that i havent included in here.

P.S: Do join, its not boring at all sometimes fighting does make u feel better if ur stressed XD.

Breaking Point (Poem)

susa_24 — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 04:29:53 GMT

You realise what you've come here to do,
You wish i did too.
Spit it out already,
Do not tell me you have a speech ready.
I love you,
You wish you did too.
But face it honey, you don't.
So please, hurry and get to the point.

Breaking up for you means nothing,
Because in this game i was the one betting everything.
Just say it, stop playing.
Or do you wish to keep pretending?
You want to keep toying
With feeling that arent yours.
But all you'll bring in time are tears,
From eyes that dont belong to you,
But all i wish is that they streamt down your eyes, too.

Don't say you're sorry, admit it.
You were lying from the start, face it.
And even though you knew i was lovesick
You went and smashed my heart with a brick.
Save it, i dont want to be your friend,
Not right after you said this is the end.

Just leave already,
I'm not in the mood to talk to you, really.
No, there is nothing you can do,
So just leave, dont say you dont want to.
This sickness has no cure,
So just walk yourself to the door.
I dont want to see you again,
Atleast, not until i'm done hating men.

Again, if you think of a name plz tell me :D

My Twin (Poem)

susa_24 — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 01:47:21 GMT

Btw if u think of a title please do tell cuz i suck at giving names

"Who are you?"
I ask her,
The girl that suddenly appeared in front of me
"Who are you?"
She responds.

How come I feel her so close?
I have never seen her before,
But, I feel like I've known her since I was born.
"Do I know you?" I ask.
She asks the same question right back at me.

"I think I've seen you somewhere" I say.
She says so too�
Something is out here.
This is a mirror,
This girl is on the other side of a mirror.

No, this cant be right
That girl is not me�
What is the trick here?
"You are not me" I yell at her.
She yells back.

I'm not her, so she can't be me
We are two different people,
But, if we are,
Where is my reflection?
Is this just glass, and not a mirror?

She paces back and forth in front of the mirror,
I can't help but do the same.
I stop and look at her.
Amazingly, she does the same.
She does not look like me, there is no way.

"I don�t believe this" She says.
That�s odd; I thought I had said that.
Apparently she is just as surprised as I am.
And just as frustrated.
Who am I now?

After 20 minutes,
We both sit down on the floor in front of the mirror.
I am trying to figure her out.
She looks sad, there is more to her than meets the eye.
This cant be me, I keep thinking.

I've decided not to talk,
Because every time I do she says the same.
Is she playing games with me?
Two hours is very long for a game.
But she looks so familiar.

I know her from somewhere, I know I do,
But I just can't remember from where
Apparently she is having the same dilemma I am.
She looks nothing like me.
I wonder why I've wasted four hours on this.

"Please, tell me" She looks just as desperate as I am.
"Am I� are you�me?" She asks, and I ask too�
"I think you are" We say
Her eyes are now filled with tears,
Because she just realized what she's become.

"I won't believe it" We cry.
"How did you end up like this?" I ask her.
Silly me, she knows just as much as I do.
"I don�t know, so shut up" We yell.

She looks so fragile,
I'm afraid she might break.
She looks so broken now,
It breaks my heart to watch her cry.
"Everything's going to be fine."

I reach out and try to touch her.
She does the same.
But all we manage to do is touch
The cold glass in front of us.
She breaks down and starts sobbing again.

I feel sorry for her, she looks disoriented.
If only I could break the glass between us
And comfort her for a while.
She must be alone; she's been gone for six hours now.
Someone would look for her.

I don�t dare look into her eyes.
I'm afraid of what I might find there.
How did I become her?
How did I become that image in front of me?
How long has it been since I looked into a mirror?