God damn it, Kamina.
Withdrawal: Day 3
It's been a painful and rough day, Well since 12:00 in the morning, Maybe I'll Have to regret A Choice that was made for the rest of my life (It Wasn't About Amoking, it was about something Else) , But I Stay by my word.
Though I Did have the urge to Go Smoke again, I Resisted, Just Barely Through......It's getting dangerous, But I'll Pull through.
But I Couldn't Sleep and That's been Affecting my Stress along with my Withdrawal which is Very Painful (for the Mind)........When I Finally Did Sleep, I Had a Nightmare of Everything I was Reaching out for Vanishing in Flames while I Just Stood my Ground, Useless, Helpless and Alone......It Also Had a Flashback of Things both good and bad that happened to me That shaped who I Am Today......
I Swear My Life is like a Never ending story.......But I Will find the Ending of it, A Tragedy or a Comedy........I Can't Tell Yet, Honestly It's Looking like a tragedy.......or maybe we haven't reached the Climax yet......
I Hold My Swear/Promise No Matter What, Like a True man. I Never Turn back on a Word to a girl.
Then School started.....Well now I'm Somewhat an Outcast......
But I Haven't changed what, though they are scared of me..... I'm just Unpredictable under these conditions..........But Some Stay by and help me.....
My Insomnia Messed up my Vision a little, so now I Need Glasses for Reading and for Working (sometimes)....
And I always Saw this all day....everysong I had Was counted by my mood.......
Knowing That I May be too late for Forgotten or they may forget thier promise:
It's a Sad Song but It Just Crushes me at that time.....
Then the Next song:
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Biskit
It Just....Idk it made me kinda Depressed......
but the Next Song (ironically by an Emo Band)
It Was a Good Song, I guess It Did Somehow Give me Hope that or I'm Just Fantasizing,
Then It was
"Stairway to Heaven - Led Zepplin"
"Greatest Man That Ever Lived - Weezer"
"The Good Life - Weezer"
"Blackhole Sun - Soundgarden "
"Bullet with Butterfly wings - Smashing Pumpkins"
Then The Song that Helped Me:
Hey Jude, Don't make it bad.. Take a Sad Song, And Make it better, Remember to Let her in your heart, Then you can Start to make it better...............
Well It Did make it better, Except that thing that Still is bugging me..........
The Parental Ban that is on me from another person's parents.............
.............This Is porabably What Romeo Felt when he found out Juliet was a Capulet and of a Opposite Faction.....
Yeah it kills.......Withdrawal Sucks.......Big Time.....
So guys Remember, Dont Smoke or Drink! If you Do Quit!..but 420's Fine In My Opinion
Well this is an Actualy Blog O.o.........
Thanks - Tye
Though I Did have the urge to Go Smoke again, I Resisted, Just Barely Through......It's getting dangerous, But I'll Pull through.
But I Couldn't Sleep and That's been Affecting my Stress along with my Withdrawal which is Very Painful (for the Mind)........When I Finally Did Sleep, I Had a Nightmare of Everything I was Reaching out for Vanishing in Flames while I Just Stood my Ground, Useless, Helpless and Alone......It Also Had a Flashback of Things both good and bad that happened to me That shaped who I Am Today......
I Swear My Life is like a Never ending story.......But I Will find the Ending of it, A Tragedy or a Comedy........I Can't Tell Yet, Honestly It's Looking like a tragedy.......or maybe we haven't reached the Climax yet......
I Hold My Swear/Promise No Matter What, Like a True man. I Never Turn back on a Word to a girl.
"Don't Make a Girl a Promise, If you know you Can't keep it."
Then School started.....Well now I'm Somewhat an Outcast......
But I Haven't changed what, though they are scared of me..... I'm just Unpredictable under these conditions..........But Some Stay by and help me.....
My Insomnia Messed up my Vision a little, so now I Need Glasses for Reading and for Working (sometimes)....
And I always Saw this all day....everysong I had Was counted by my mood.......
Knowing That I May be too late for Forgotten or they may forget thier promise:
The needle on my record player has been wearing thin
This record has been playing since the day you've been with him
No more long rides home
No more of your station
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
[x2]
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long to see you
Maybe it's for the best
Maybe it's not for anything
It wouldn't be so bad to take this right from me
No more long rides home
No more of your station
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
[x2]
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long to see you
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
How many times I've tried
Blatant mistakes of your design
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
Blatant mistakes of your design
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I wanted too long to see you
I've had so many chances
Turn my back and I ran away
I've had so many chances to see you
Hit or Miss - New Found Glory
This record has been playing since the day you've been with him
No more long rides home
No more of your station
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
[x2]
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long to see you
Maybe it's for the best
Maybe it's not for anything
It wouldn't be so bad to take this right from me
No more long rides home
No more of your station
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
[x2]
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long to see you
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
How many times I've tried
Blatant mistakes of your design
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
Blatant mistakes of your design
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I wanted too long to see you
I've had so many chances
Turn my back and I ran away
I've had so many chances to see you
Hit or Miss - New Found Glory
It's a Sad Song but It Just Crushes me at that time.....
Then the Next song:
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Biskit
It Just....Idk it made me kinda Depressed......
but the Next Song (ironically by an Emo Band)
Breathe in for luck
Breathe in so deep
This air is blessed
You share with me
This night is wild
So calm and dull
These hearts, they race
From self-control
Your legs are smooth
As they graze mine
We're doing fine
We're doing nothing at all
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury
Or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer
Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional
Breathe in so deep
This air is blessed
You share with me
This night is wild
So calm and dull
These hearts, they race
From self-control
Your legs are smooth
As they graze mine
We're doing fine
We're doing nothing at all
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury
Or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer
Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional
It Was a Good Song, I guess It Did Somehow Give me Hope that or I'm Just Fantasizing,
Then It was
"Stairway to Heaven - Led Zepplin"
"Greatest Man That Ever Lived - Weezer"
"The Good Life - Weezer"
"Blackhole Sun - Soundgarden "
"Bullet with Butterfly wings - Smashing Pumpkins"
Then The Song that Helped Me:
Hey Jude, Don't make it bad.. Take a Sad Song, And Make it better, Remember to Let her in your heart, Then you can Start to make it better...............
Well It Did make it better, Except that thing that Still is bugging me..........
The Parental Ban that is on me from another person's parents.............
.............This Is porabably What Romeo Felt when he found out Juliet was a Capulet and of a Opposite Faction.....
Yeah it kills.......Withdrawal Sucks.......Big Time.....
So guys Remember, Dont Smoke or Drink! If you Do Quit!..but 420's Fine In My Opinion
Well this is an Actualy Blog O.o.........
Thanks - Tye
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You will not regret quitting smoking trust me 8) er, me indirectly actually, I have family members who smoked (personally I can't stand the smell it makes me nauseous)Posted 05-22-2009 at 12:53 AM by violist
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its strange, i have smoked for nearly 3 years and i can honestly say im not addicted in the slightest, if im going out drinking i have to have some but if i was at home or just doing regular things i dont have any impulse to have onePosted 05-22-2009 at 01:00 AM by joeboi112 -
Kids these days.....Posted 05-22-2009 at 01:01 AM by SenBon-ZaKurA -
i smoked for 11 years and quit cold turkey.
i warned everyone i was around before i did though. just to be nicePosted 05-22-2009 at 01:32 AM by vesta -
you could try nicotine gum to kill the cravings for cigarettes and step down from them gradually by chewing less and less over a period of time. As for your life problems you should be like me! Let everything go with the flow, there will be some good times, some bad times, the funny times and the best and worst moments of your life. But you always gotta keep positive after all what is going on right now is, after all, only for this one now out of the millions we will see later. This is why my elements are water and light tye
just let everything happen. Posted 05-22-2009 at 03:34 AM by White -
was the promise to quit smoking? thats easy (ex-smoker to)Posted 05-22-2009 at 08:15 AM by SilverShadow -
I needed to get sick for 2 weeks... since I recovered, after 2 weeks without smoking, the smell of the smoke alone makes me throw up :\Posted 05-22-2009 at 09:10 AM by Irongiulio -
quitting smoking is easy and...
ironically... lolQuote:but the Next Song (ironically by an Emo Band)Posted 05-22-2009 at 11:00 AM by ProDeathblow
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