heartbreak hotel

[Devil Bat]

A person I loved died earlier today and I don't feel anything. I haven't cried or even remembered good times with them. I feel like crap because of my emotionless state. I feel like its any other day and I don't know why.....

[Tyeboi777]

[Devil Bat]

Originally Posted by Tyeboi777

That is funny as hell. I cracked up for moment, thanks for a that Tye.

[foolcoolylover]

it happens its called shock i think

[BlindFighter]

I am pretty dead in side so it would take a lot for me to be heart broken

[skoubri]

Originally Posted by foolcoolylover

it happens its called shock i think

Yeah it's definitely shock. It's like you know it happened but you don't fully realize it. It's a tricky, annoying condition when you can't even understand your feelings. I wish the best for you eyeshield and I'm really sorry about your friend..

@scar... Personally I believe that things like that happen for a good cause. As you said if you hadn't had that accident you would probably hadn't realized what was going on. Being cold is logical. After a break up like that it's a normal consequence. I think you have to understand that not all people are like that and that it's not a 100% that you will be betrayed. You were just...how should I say this?... unlucky.. too unlucky...

Originally Posted by BlindFighter

I am pretty died in side so it would a lot for me to be heart broken

I don't understand what you are saying...

[BlindFighter]

Originally Posted by skoubri

I don't understand what you are saying...

either do I

[scar47]

Originally Posted by skoubri

Yeah it's definitely shock. It's like you know it happened but you don't fully realize it. It's a tricky, annoying condition when you can't even understand your feelings. I wish the best for you eyeshield and I'm really sorry about your friend..

@scar... Personally I believe that things like that happen for a good cause. As you said if you hadn't had that accident you would probably hadn't realized what was going on. Being cold is logical. After a break up like that it's a normal consequence. I think you have to understand that not all people are like that and that it's not a 100% that you will be betrayed. You were just...how should I say this?... unlucky.. too unlucky...


I don't understand what you are saying...

ya im a realyy unlucky person honestly...
im the kind of guy who downloads something for 3 hours and the power goes out in the last 10 minutes. but he bum part is the fact that i finally realise that noone has ever really loved me.

[skoubri]

Originally Posted by scar47

ya im a realyy unlucky person honestly...
im the kind of guy who downloads something for 3 hours and the power goes out in the last 10 minutes. but he bum part is the fact that i finally realise that noone has ever really loved me.

No matter how unlucky you are, how many bad things happen to you, I can't accept there aren't people that love you. I'm sure there are, maybe you can't see them right now because you are hurt. Don't let your sadness and disappointment get in your way!

[crysjarl]

hmmm, i feel compelled to also tell my story after reading the posts..lol

nway, it happened 3 years ago... im over it, but i guess some things, cant just be forgiven no matter how well u tried to forgive and forget... the story goes like this... im in a 3yr relationship wd this guy,my first bf..really thought he is the one...no probs wd each our family, so i kind of think that we will be married not far in the future...(guess i was so wrong!)

i started noticing some changes wd him, he is so aloof, not always texting me like he used too, not so attentive suddenly he said he just tired from wrk..then i heard rumors that he is seen wd some girl... i confronted him, but he denied it, so i let it pass...then after a few months, we went to this place to process some school documents, we were together,but after awhile, he just suddenly started to talked about if anything happens in the future, dont ever give up your dreams, be strong, etc..and then he cried... i was alarmed of course, though he did not elaborate what was wrong...i let it pass, thinking that he was stressed at worked...

another week passed, i was asked by a friend if im still wd my bf, are we still on???yes of course i answered.. they asked me to come to their place and that we have to talked about something... 4 of my friends started grueling questions if me and my bf, were fighting about something?? or did we break up???said no, we jsut saw each other a week before, everything is fine... so i started to panic, and got afraid... i told them to tell me whats wrong?? i started crying...

and then they told me, that my bf got married to another girl... a week ago..(day after we were together to process our shool paper)....and that the girl was pregnant, and that she was about to give birth!!! i was crying hysterically, thinking it was all made up( most of my friends dont really approved of him )....
i asked them who was the source of the news... i found out it was a common friend of his family that blurt out the news, thinking all the while that me and my bf are already broken up...

my whole world came crushing down... i could not believe that the person i loved, would do this to me...!!! i confronted him on the phone. i was crying all the while...( he was on another island, working) and he told me its true...he was also crying... he explained that the girl was a previous co worker, they had a one night stand.. the girl got preggy, and he did not want the child to be illegitimate...and that he did not love her..they did not live as a couple, they just got married for the sake of the baby, so that it will have a legitimate name....i dont know if it was all true...

but to this day, i still carry the grudge( i even cursed him not to find happiness ever again because of what he did),and even though i have move on now i still feel some pain when i remember it... on some level i understood him, but it was really a painful experience for me to ever get over....and i wish that someday everything will not be as painful..and that i will be able to forgive him little by little...