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haha..
ayan nagtatagalog ka na!!
nakakatapak ka na ulit sa pilipinas)
sige ba just wanna see you again.

you and your poems... I wish you'd left the line about parents out though. (made me miss my dad something awful.)

yes, you're right, it did. and it's alright that you missed it.
you ever tried breathing while the air is that full of smoke? it's kinda difficult.
I get it, and I have tried, but when something like that happens and I'm alone in the house I can't really do much about my reaction. you'd be surprised how well I did hold it together even while freaking though.
(I had to go to my grandparent's house or I would have worked myself up to the point where I'd never have gotten over it, but as long as I had a goal I could concentrate on that and not panic about the fire.)

*shakes head* I really don't know what to do with you Jazzer...
*takes the cutlery away* keep trying that and I will admit you to a mental hospital...

No, why would I say its so, so boring? We all have our ways to celebrate things in our lives, it wouldn’t be right for me to judge. Isn’t that right? An awesome birthday for me would be to have a surprise party!! Now since it’s a surprise, someone else would have to plan it, but like nothing too big, but something with close friends and family, dancing, laughing, eating, a little drinking (never get drunk, one of my most hated things about a person… its irresponsible, dangerous and selfish to become that way) at a club or rented space. I hate being the center of attention, but I would make an acceptation on that day. I mean its all about surprises, I like surprises, but they rarely happen in my life :0\ But yea, im not going to judge how you decide to spend your day, whatever makes you happy (as long as its something good, not bad) that’s what matters

Come now jazer, Im not mad at you about the things that transpired on my birthday, because it was TOTALLY not your fault. I messed up and didn’t plan things well. If you keep blaming yourself we will both have to pouty faces And you don’t have to make amends, of course I can ask you for or to do something for me, but that would be taking advantage of you in a situation that was not your fault. All is well nii-chan, lets just enjoy our respective gifts from each other.

“why being a bad boy makes you somehow comfortable for some reason?” Well that’s easy nii-chan, because all girls like bad boys…. Haha, ok, im kidding… The real reason: Since you have that bad boy side, it makes you seem more real. Like I have this thought about you, the way I feel you are, your personality, the way you carry yourself, you know? And you are a clean cut, nice, well mannered, trustworthy and smart person in my eyes… When someone is too “good”, they are kinda nearing a perfection of some sort. Nothing is that perfect, there has to be something all the time, having a bad boy side makes you human in this virtual world, and its not bad. I hope what I said isn’t too confusing, its hard to really relay what im trying to say.

Of course I wouldn’t want you to return to that “toxic” (as you say ) state, anyone who would say to do that would be selfish and uncaring. Besides, nii-chan would probably treat me like a rock on the side of the road, which would hurt my feelings ... Then I would have to transform into my bad state aswell…HAHA!! .. Nii-chan should be scared of that side of nee-chan ..

OOooOOO while I was going through my pictures on my laptop, I found the pic with taiga and your white cat… Now forgive me, I have forgotten his name, you said he was a grumpy one it think….uhm.. off the top of the head… Snowball? Either way, the pic was way cute, my gosh, taiga pics are the best!! #animallover

iwished magkita ulit tayo kahit coffee lang